Posted by Elle2021 on January 10, 2004, at 1:04:00
In reply to Re: Bye bye happy mania, posted by Karen_kay on January 9, 2004, at 23:37:24
I definitely could get a job, I mean, once I have one, she isn't going to try to make me quit. But, she has ways of making me feel ultra-guilty for doing something that lessens her control. When I lived away from her, she used to call me everynight and if I was getting ready to go somewhere, she would get really upset and want me to stay home. Then, if she couldn't get me to stay home she would be like, "Well, don't stay out past x amount, and call me periodically." I would always tell her (very calmly), "Well, I'm not really sure what time I will be home, or if it will be before x, but tomrrow I will give you a call." That was never good enough for her. I feel like she really has some issues concerning her not leaving the house. I talked to her about seeing a doctor and she thinks I'm trying to be spiteful, but I'm not. I really do want her to see a doctor.
>And I'm not brave at all. I just blurt things out often.
Yes, hehe. I blurt things out too, but they never come out the way I want them to. :) You don't have to ask that question, I just thought it would be interesting. Does your therapist know you post here? Does he know which one you are?
>But, maybe you could find out about seeing a different therapist?
I could, he has offered to get me an appointment with this female therapist. Sometimes, I think I might do better with a female therapist. My appointments with my pdoc used to be once every two weeks, but they weren't on his regular schedule. Now I have a recurring app. But, it's only once a month and it doesn't amount to much more than a meds check. :( I will talk to him about it at my upcoming appointment. I just want him to like me. I have this need for him to like me and want me to be his daughter. But I have a feeling that he is more likely thinking, "I'm so happy my kids didn't turn out like this."
Giddily awaiting a response to the NON-ratty-haired Karen.
Elle
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