Posted by kara lynne on July 5, 2003, at 0:57:13
In reply to Re: Just because it's a holiday I hate..., posted by tina on July 4, 2003, at 20:03:44
Thanks tina. That's exactly where I'm at. Even though he was so mean that last time. I just can't reconcile someone being *that* mean; I know people get really pissed off at each other, but I think once it's gone past a certain line it's just too hard to recover.
And yet tonight I went out and I was comparing everyone to him--oh that guy isn't as intelligent, and that guy isn't as funny----like mine was simply the greatest guy around. I know he'll be out tonight with lots of friends, he always has plenty of fans and people who love him. Then I look at my sorry little life--I was talking to my friends tonight about computer dating (this couple actually met through a computer dating service) and it was so depressing. I said my first requirement would have to be that I didn't want any guy who would do computer dating!!
They were holding hands as we were walking, and I couldn't even watch. I just wanted to leave and cry. I don't like being alone. I want someone to hold my hand.
The guy made me feel like crap. He had no problem telling me what a disgusting person I am. Why do I miss him so much?
Anyway, thank you for understanding. I know you're having a really hard time too and I admire your strength. I can't believe what your husband put you through, it's just unforgiveable.
Here's to us getting through this as quickly and painlessly as possible, so that next year we aren't alone on this holiday I hate.
poster:kara lynne
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