Posted by leeran on June 6, 2003, at 16:33:13
In reply to Re: jimi's 6/3/02: leeran's menoBabble idea » leeran, posted by lil' jimi on June 6, 2003, at 16:19:24
Jimi -
Your writing always seems to flow as if you're on a roll. Don't change a thing!
Yes, I did see that message from Dr. Bob after Dinah pointed it out here on this board. I hadn't visited for awhile because of, well, you know - the fall-out from the nuclear (family) bomb my son and ex dropped on May 21 (that date may become a significant one for me to remember in years to come, and not in a good way).
I'm feeling as though I might have rounded yet another corner in the last few days. Acceptance has not come easy these last two weeks. I definitely feel stuck in a double bind and the only thing that will change anything is time. It will take time for him to assimilate whether or not living there full-time is right for him, time for me to get used to such a foreign idea, but most of all - time to adjust to the reality that he is no longer part of my every day "immediate" existence. All the patterns of life, the time he walks in from school - the shower turning on at 7:10 every morning . . . him sitting on the stool next to my desk and telling me about his day. All that stuff.
Now I feel like that Staples commercial around Christmas time with the robot "Weeping. Weeping."
I'm just kidding - I'm not weeping.
As I recall, you have a four year old child - right?
All I can say is this - enjoy every single moment because the time goes by so d*mned fast. About the time they become one of (if not) the most interesting people you've ever met - it's time for them to start to drift into their own future. Actually, N's maturity has probably brought about this a few years earlier than typical college age. His dad and I both agree that he is really mature, yet he is so dependent on me as the "safety net." Hopefully, this will be a transition time wherein he can become more self-sufficient. That's one of the silver lining versions I placate myself with in order not to go completely insane.
Thanks again for the head's up (or is it heads, heads' up?) on the post from Dr. Bob.
Have a good weekend,
Yours in Lexapro :-)
Lee
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