Posted by lil' jimi on June 4, 2003, at 16:25:17
(((mariposa and my other firends))))
i encountered an old friend who wished me well and expressed her condolences as she mentioned she knew it was the anniversary .....
i did not know what she was talking about AT ALL.
i hardly ever see darla any more ... we used to work together, years ago .... hadn't seen her in months ..... yet she remembered so thoughtfully what i had completely forgotten ...
my folks had a car accident one year ago yesterday and my mom died immediately.
my failure to get over this has been THE reason i was diagnosed with depression and why i am on lexapro .... we could wish that this oversight might mean i was getting better .... i'm wishing!
but i am just this moment absorbing the impact of my friend bringing me back to .....
how much it hurts ....
No, i'm not really all that much better, now that i've begun to try to dwell on it.
dad was 83 and mom was 81 .... my sibs and i had tried to prepare for the inevitable, but .....
the auto accident that took mom took another week before dad died from his injuries ..... he suffered miserably that week, never regained anything like conversational lucidity at all.
as bad as the shock of losing them that way was, it was all the worse for me because i had issues with my mom ..... still.
a year ago today i was catching a plane to florida from texas ....
i'll share more with you later .... when i can get up for it better...
thanks for listening, friends,
~ jim
poster:lil' jimi
thread:231433
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