Posted by lil' jimi on June 6, 2003, at 12:30:22
In reply to Re: my mom died june 3rd, 2002 and i forgot:mariposa, posted by Mariposa on June 4, 2003, at 19:20:27
hi mariposa, hi lee, hi everyone else (?),
Mariposa wrote:
>> If I may without seeming insensitive (because I REALLY am concerned, for you and for myself and others) ......i repeat for emphasis that nothing about your message seemed at all insensitive to me .... you (and leelee) have always been a great confort to me .... this is the same..... thanks!
>> Do you think it was the Lexapro that has Made you forget? By that I mean are we all under the influence of a drug that mutes your emotions and feelings, makes you "forget" your trials and tribulations under a fog of chemicals??? How can we deal with our problems if we are not "bothered" by them????
>>and i think this is a great and very valuable issue for a discussion ...... maybe we can work on it here (Social) and then take it over to the lex thread to open 'er up for everyone!
>> Take Care ~ 8|8 <<<< my attempt at butterfly
and i LOVE your butterfly! .... this ol' man says, Way Cool!
so .... anyway.
>> Do you think it was the Lexapro that has Made you forget? By that I mean are we all under the influence of a drug that mutes your emotions and feelings, makes you "forget" your trials and tribulations under a fog of chemicals??? How can we deal with our problems if we are not "bothered" by them????
i see clearly the danger you are highlighting .... well, not so dire as a danger, as much as a risk:
Are we being **drugged** into a numb, comatose, emotional zombie, too zoned out to feel depressed or feel anything.which should reflect the presciption drug equivalent of alcoholism: medicated to the point of drunken unconsciousness and oblivion about our psycho-neurotransmitter(s) dysfunction(s) ... well, we don't have to bothher with this alcohol abuse parallel.
what i have experienced has been the antithesis of the numbed-out-till-we-can't-complain-about-our-pain explanation:
at least for me, it seems like i suffered (was suffering?) a certain level of pain, i became accostumed to this from long constant exposure, i was inured to it as most of us become and , of course, i ignored it and what it was doing to me and to my relationships.
what i feel happened to me when i took lex was as it began to support my neurotransmitter(s) levels was (is) it did two things:
first, i think it increased my sensitivity to the pain which i had numbed myself to ..... so i felt much worse for this ...
then, it began to lessen the pain level as my neurotransmitters began to stabilize........
but his lessening was an increment that let me be able tolook
at what and how i (was) am hurting, which without lexapro, i would NOT be able to do .... i would not be aware enough to do .... .. it gave me enough relief to be able to stand my pain level enough to be able to handle thinking about doing sommething about it.
without lexapro, i'd be a popscicle-man : my pain would still have me emotionally frozen by the tension of the agony; unable to feel, unable to see my hurt; clueless that there was any problem; an emotional automoton; a robot; a tin man without a heart that i could hear beat ....
these posts are evidence that lex has benefited my recovery by helping me to progress to this point, that now i can see where i have (emotional)work to do and i can now begin to do it.
so for me it is just the opposite of being numbed to my pain, because for me, lexapro has made me so much more aware of my emotions, mmy hurt and my emotional needs for me to recover.
what about y'all,
....... how it work for you guys?~ jim
poster:lil' jimi
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