Posted by leeran on June 6, 2003, at 15:06:08
In reply to Re: i forgot june 3rd, 2002 .... » Mariposa, posted by lil' jimi on June 6, 2003, at 12:30:22
I'm currently on Lexapro - just jumped to 10 mg. - and during this personal crisis (I don't know what else to call it) concerning my son and his upcoming move back to the Midwest - I found that I experienced pain/sorrow quite deeply.
I remember how I felt on Prozac - and that was an "oh well, so what" attitude regarding just about everything . . . i.e. work, orgasms, problems and just life in general.
For that reason, I liked Prozac (sans the orgasm part - but I TAKE THAT BACK, stream of consciousness here, it was PAXIL that impacted orgasmic ability). Back to Prozac - I liked it. Perhaps it should ultimately be my anti-depressant of choice but I always thought it contributed to weight gain and breast tenderness - which all might have been peri-menopausal in nature, who knows?
If only our bodies would spit out a detailed report of what's caused by what and what's needed to "fix" it. Wouldn't life be so much easier . . .
Anyway, I found that Lexapro didn't numb my ability to experience loss. Hard to tell how I would have handled it without.
Since I'm just rambling and railing I will say this: I hate menopause. More than anything else, I feel it has robbed me of myself. I never know if "it" is menopause or depression, menopause or mania, menopause or OCD, or menopause or ennui.
Dr. Bob, I rarely address any portion of my posts (I think this is a first) to you - but I will take this opportunity to do so.
Have you ever considered a "Psycho-Meno" board?
I know my psychiatrist has mentioned that he's had many peri-menopausal and menopausal women come to his office literally thinking they've gone mad. Same with my gynecologist.
Not long ago, I saw a clip on Larry King of Dr. Phil McGraw's wife doing a focus group with women in menopause. I could see such an immediate bond between these women, perhaps because the experience is hard to describe unless you're going through it - or have been through it.
Now, I know - some women breeze through menopause. Actually - I breezed through my "fertile years" with little or no difficulty. Barely a blip on the radar screen. No endometriosis, no pain, could buy a box of t**pons and it would last a year, etc. Same thing with pregnancy - no morning sickness - not even ONCE (the birth was a different story).
I guess, hormonally, there has to be one component of womanhood that knocks us on our *ss (civilly put - b*tt).
Dr. Bob, if you ever decide to add such an extension (I know, you're not doing this as a study anymore and I certainly wouldn't want to add an additional headache or more bandwidth to your monthly internet charges) I would certainly be willing to be one of the "monitors" or civility police (whatever it's called).
Signing out -
Lee
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