Posted by paisleygirl on January 18, 2012, at 10:03:31
So, I went and saw DBT therapist for an intake, which was fine. This was $175 though and the classes will be $120. I started thinking about it more and realized there is no way I can afford all of this- that I would be going into even more debt- and that this would be so irresponsible.
So, anyways- after I met with DBT therapist, my old therapist/psychiatrist saw me (b/c she said she would if I had met with him).
Anyways- I've been really upset and I cut myself last night and I took a picture for me to save. I kind of was proud of my cutting. Anyways, I had the bright idea to send the picture to her (which i had never done before).
I saw her today- updated her again on how I couldn't afford the dbt when I thought about it- told her all about my financial situation- told her I canceled the follow-up dbt appointment- and then she also told me how sending the photo wasn't a good idea and how it was "completely inappropriate".
she asked me a few more questions, and i basically replied what's the point in answering b/c you aren't going to see me anyways.
and she was like you're right, i'm not going to change my mind.
so i was like okay, i guess basically this is it.
and i left.
so instead of going to work i came home. i couldn't deal with work right now.
so basically i'm without a dbt therapist and without a psychiatrist.
not to mention that i've been off my prozac for now 3-4 weeks. we didnt' even get to that topic today.
i think i'm falling, crashing very fast.
i think i'm about to lose it. too much weight is on my shoulders. i can't do this all by myself. i can't afford the help. i'm really thinking bad thoughts b/c i want out of this mess. of course, i didn't tell now old therapist/psychiatrist this b/c she would just make me go to the er. so retarded.
poster:paisleygirl
thread:1007661
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