Posted by alexandra_k on March 7, 2005, at 19:49:32
Still waiting on the assessment...
My p-doc decided to do something fairly novel with me today. He decided to actually try to do some therapy with me. Just a little bit...
I find it hard to think of stuff to say when left to my own devices. I don't say anything for a bit... And then I worry that I'll be told 'if you don't have anything to say then you may as well go home' like one of my therapists used to say. So I start rambelling about work and can get quite animated on the topic of my thesis which fills in those silences quite nicely, but is surely not what therapy is supposed to be about.
Need a little direction...
He asked me about why I don't look at him.
I don't look at therapists. Well, maybe briefly when I say 'hello' in the waiting room, but not after that. Certainly not once I am in their office.Trust, I guess.
I make a committment to get myself there on time.
I make a committment to answering questions as best I am able.
But that is all I can manage really.
He said 'trust doesn't come just like that, it has to be earned'.
I agreed. 'Not anymore'.
But he doesn't mind that I don't look at him.
He isn't going to try and flood it out of me, so that is nice.And that is all.
But that is nice.
To start on that.
Just a little bit.
Incase there really isn't anything / anyone else for me.
That is nice.:-)
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