Posted by Jeanne Befante on July 6, 2005, at 3:30:27
In reply to Six days till lst yr anniversary of Dad's passing, posted by corafree on January 26, 2005, at 15:59:44
Thank you so much for sharing. I lost my dad May 9th of 04 and I had the hardest time this year. I feel like I felt more grief this year than I did when he actually passed. I closed up inside and fell into a depression, I feel I still haven't snapped out of it...ya know. God I miss terribly. I can't explain this gnawing in my soul...Angry and sad and guilt all the same time. My brother and I cared for him in his last days and when he passed I was so exhausted and burnt out that I was kind of relieved, I believe that's why I didnt grieve fully although I cried at every minute when he passed but I didn't fully grasped the extent of his death. Some how a part of thought he was coming back...as weird as that may sound. I feel angry that I'm only 37, why did I have to loose my precious daddy so young...I thought I would be in my late forties or early fifties before I would loose him, like he was when he lost my gram. Life can be so unfair...But I know that he's not suffering anymore. He had a terrible lung disease (pulmonary fibrosis) and had the hardest time breathing. But he was strong to deal what he had to go through...I love you so much daddy.
Thank you so much for this site. I'm totally gratefull. I thought I was loosing my mind and felt so alone but this site has given me so much comfort...Thank you. Now I know God is watching over me, so he's letting me know that he's caring for my soul.
Thank you and may God love guide and comfort to all...Jeanne Benfante
poster:Jeanne Befante
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