Posted by jubilee on January 30, 2005, at 20:23:56
In reply to Re: I'm 52- and recovering from sons loss, posted by Spriggy on January 29, 2005, at 21:21:00
Hi Spriggy,
I was overwhelmed with grief and I believe it became a spiritual matter and I got prayer last week, as I started crying more lately than in the beginning. I am also comming off an AD called effexor which makes you over emotional. I have been very angry with God and I knew he loved me , BUT I had to have a "word". I got prayer , a sister came over to my home , and told her my anger towards God was getting out of hand and I couldn't stop weeping. and I couldnt sleep, which I am now, After she prayed I have been doing great. A couple days after prayer , this last Sat. I felt I finally got a word from God in prayer on my son ,where he said his mercy was there and thats why he wasnt revived , as he would have been a vegetable, and that would have been too painful for all of us. I felt so loved by God when he spoke that to my heart , and I had been over my anger several days with him. I have a much deeper relationship or i feel closer to God knowing that he allows me to have all my feelings and be real as he already knows exactly how you really feel anyways and I know he perfers our honesty.Thank you for sharing with me as my father died about two years ago and I miss him and the trips up to his place and all the visits, but he was in a wheelchair , half body stroke and numb and he wanted to go home . There was peace in it too I am just so very sorry to hear of your fathers pain as it sounded like he might be in physical pain also. Is that right? I know it will be hard for you , but time and lots of talking about it really heals, and in my case there is always prayer (extra) to get us over the rough spots. I didn't have that hard of time with my dad , but there is no loss like a child loss. We were on excelent terms when he passed and that was an awesome blessing , thats a good reason to never go to bed angry at anyone if possible. I wish you well in you situation conserning your dad, just know he is definately going to a better place and take comfort in that as I know my son is with the Lord and that gives me great joy.
You being the well one might have to stick up for your dad on pain meds as he shouldnt have to suffer. I am so sorry he is suffering . I never really ever have been close to death , until my son died and I was in denial a long time , and it changed my relationships with my other 2 sons and made them better. Take care, Jubilee
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