Posted by jubilee on January 25, 2005, at 19:29:24
In reply to Re: I'm 52 and lost my 27 year old son-hi Rosie, posted by jubilee on December 11, 2004, at 18:58:04
I wanted to share more conserning getting through the grief process and whats been happening conserning my son Jacob. . Something significant happened 3 days ago. God and I have had some interesting conversations lately as I have actually been mad at God , and having a very hard time shaking it. I went into deeper grief about a month ago and I finally got ahold of a christian friend to come to my home and annoint me with oil and pray for me , and I have been able to sleep again and my anger is gone (anger also from comming off a drug,Anti depressant, I had mentioned didnt help). I went to church last Sunday, a new one as I just havent been able to make it. It was nice.
3 nights ago , in prayer I felt I heard a word from the Lord and the fact that his mercy was very much involved in my sons death. My son had been dead awhile but still revivable , but not good... They brought him into the kitchen from his bed BUT they , after 45 minutes , could not get the breathing tube down his throat like it had been crushed , but it wasn't. If he had been revived , he more than likely would have been on a resperator and like a vegtable bringing himself heartbreak and our family the rest of his life. . The thought of that brought me into gratefulness, and I felt a closenes to the Lord again , like I feel deeper trust, even though I still miss Jacob so much. I believe I was oppressed by "grief" until my friend prayed as I should have been getting better , not worse, and I have hardly cried since that prayer. . I just found the binder this grief address was in . Hope you are all well. Jubilee
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