Posted by someloser on October 16, 2003, at 0:41:39
In reply to Feeling so Much pain over Breakup.. please help, posted by jeff g on October 15, 2003, at 3:13:59
im new to this forum stuff. heres some background: depression since i was a little kid stuck on all kinds of meds. now im on effexorXR. lately things have gotten really shitty. I just turned 18 2 weeks ago and i thought stuff would be so much better now but its not. like last year when i graduate dfrom high school about a month prior i met a girl. at first it was jsut casual then i thoguht you know, maybe shes good for me. of course all this she had a obyfriend on some other place. im not very big or good looking either. i got braces still, had them since 7th grade. well yesterday i worked my ass of at work and got in a fight with my parents after and broke tons of shit and got kicked out of my house. and i dont haave any friends here except her. so she takes nite school so i went to her school to wait to see if icould talk to her. she showed up late and i tried to cover all the blood on me and shit and she had a big stoned smile on her face. so we talked for a bit and i ditn tell her what was up then she started telling me about her new boyfriend. that completed my day and if shit doesnt go better maybe my life. im sick of the way things are. today i signed up for the marines but since last night i got drunk and stoned i cant pass a piss test so i cant join. not to mention nobody to talk to or hang out with, just me and my pc in my cave. i also was in a relaiton ship with a girl in 11th grade. the first one. and she was good looking too and everything, and i didnt know what i had going for me. back then i got in a fight with my uncle who i was living with, got kicked out had to move to washington, never talked to her again. then i called my best friend up back in california and found out he was goign out with her and they both got matching tattoos. life is a bowl of fucking cherries.
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