Posted by world citizen on April 29, 2005, at 2:26:06
In reply to Re: spoke too soon.............. » woolav, posted by Larry Hoover on April 27, 2005, at 14:40:48
Larry, Dr. Bob didn't understand that I was referring to Music Therapy issues and he bumped me over here. Oh well. I gave him a very courteous "what for" response.
As long as I'm here... I've been reading some of your responses and REALLY like what I read (hear). I really need to process some stuff and wonder if you'd be so kind as to give me your feed back.
My main focus is attempting to stay in the present because this is where my life is unfolding. I get very scared ( not an uncommon reaction for someone with PTSD) and have to make myself start being grateful for all the many, many blessings God has been so kind as to give me. Larry, I'm in dire need of encouragement of the positive and someone to help point out where I might be lying to myself.
If this sounds like a short-term project you'd like to lend your understanding and clear thinking to please let me know, okay?
I don't know, maybe there are others here that would want to offer assistance, but you are going to be more aware of my history, as sketchy as it's been, and would be in a better position to see more clearly due to the fact that you are somewhat more aware from what you may have picked up from over at Alternative Remedies. I have a habit of unintentionally imposing on others just because I feel so intensely. (this is also what makes my singing so powerful, I'm told)
I met this guy at the park where I do my walking. He is in a very similar place as myself in terms of wanting to stay present and authentic. I REALLY enjoyed talking with him. I think my "honesty" scared him off more effectively than if I would have chambered a round in a shotgun within his earshot! I was tested not too long ago and my intellence was "officially" in the very superior range-my verbal skills (I think it was comprehension) was in the 99th percentile. I'll also add (truly, in all modesty) that my looks are well above average too! This combination should be a winner, huh? I scare most men to death! They talk about "baggage"! Dude, I dont' have "baggage" what I have would be considered FREIGHT!!!!! I'm trying SOOO hard to overcome so much! I'm so, so grateful to God for my music! Sometimes I take my little boombox over to the park and just sing my a** off! I have to! It's the only way my heart has to conncect with others!
I'm just so freaking intense-but I laugh alot too, you know? I think the more honest we are the more we can find humor in commonplace events (not unlike Seinfeld!).I'm on a very significant threshold and would greatly appreciate your input. (I wonder if Dr. Bob is going to boot me somewhere else. Maybe he has a Lonely Hearts category or something;>)
I'm going to the club on Saturday night to hear a different configuration of the band I sang with on Monday. (THEY WERE SOOOO FREAKING GOOD!!!) There is an elderly lady that I know that needs to get out of her isolation and she LOVES jazz so I've asked her to go and she can hardly sit still now:>)!!! I'm just going to focus on staying "here" and singing. Oh yeah, this indicates my commitment to my musical unfoldment-I bought "the Ultimate Jazz Fake Book". It's time!
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