Posted by crushedout on December 30, 2003, at 18:40:13
As I've mentioned before, I'm in love with (have a crush on?) my T. She basically knows this. I've told her about my "romantic" feelings for her in various ways on different occasions.Last week I gave her a CD with a lot of romantic songs on it. The same day I emailed her about a dream I had in which she held me and kissed me and it was very thrilling for me.
This week, I go in, and she tells me that she listened to my CD and found it "uplifting" and that she decided to make me a CD in response. So, she gave me a CD. I'm not sure what to make of the songs she chose. She told me she was worried I would "draw certain conclusions" from it, but wasn't really clear about what sorts of conclusions she was concerned about. Anyway, some of the songs are kind of romantic (like "do you want to?/say you want to/'cause i want you/'cause i need you, too," or "She said, darling I'm in love with your mind/The way you care for me, it's so kind") although most of the lyrics aren't like that and I don't think I should read to much into those.
I listened to the CD immediately after leaving her office and started bawling and basically have been desperately sad ever since. Touched and happy, too, but very, very sad. I don't know what she's thinking. I love her very much, but it seems she probably shouldn't have done this, as much as I'm so glad she did. Does that make any sense?
I'm seeing her tomorrow. What should I say to her? What should I do? I can't be angry at her. I just can't. But we really need to talk about this. What should I ask her? Please help.
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