Posted by Still Hurting on January 5, 2004, at 21:43:01
In reply to Re: Your experience » Still Hurting, posted by crushedout on January 5, 2004, at 3:14:33
Crushedout,
I saw her for five months. After the first month my attachment was increasing more and more. When the attachment became noticeable that's when I confessed to her the whole deal.That was on the fifth month. That's when she decided to cancell my session for that week and reschedule me for the following week along with my doctor. Then farther sessions were to be held with her and a male therapist.
This all went down in June.
Yes the boundary crossing freaked her out, but I crossed boundaries because I loved her; that's why I say,"She punished me for loving her". Because if I didn't love her I would have never crossed boundaries; so in my opinion it would have been better advantageous to deal with my heart and not my actions. She could have worked thru my transference for both of us to better understand why it was so great. But then again, hearing all my mess it must have been clearly understandable why I clinged to her so.
But what I hate about what she did was use falsehoods to justify her actions of termination. She told her boss that because I wanted a lesbian relationship with her she had to let me go. I never told her that. I struggled with my feelings for her, and not always did I know what feelings I had for her. But never did I ask her to join me in a homo relationship. Then she told them that I wrote letters of sexual content to her. In assistance to my therapy I had to write letters and sometimes I would talk about my previous sexual relations. In all my letters never did I talk about what I wanted to do with her.
I thought that therapist were truth tellers if anybody but it concerns me that here she is supposedly teaching me a better way of living and she didn't even know the basic principle of integrity.
Then when she terminated me her establishment sent me a letter telling me not to ruin her reputation by slandering her on false allegations. Yet she's sent out all these letters destroying me. Plus a hurt client will express their frustrations to anybody who will listen. And here she is telling me not to do so. Oh well.
But crushedout, concerning your situation, I didn't get why your therapist made you that cd. What was her reason again?
Lastly, your therapist is in love face it.
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