Posted by Dena on September 6, 2003, at 10:11:35
In reply to Re: Friends dead! » Heather66, posted by Sebastian on September 6, 2003, at 9:35:40
Dear Sebastian -
Thank you for trusting us enough to share your tragic story. That was a lot for you to live through. Anyone who experienced what you experienced would be just as devastated.
It does sound like the makings of a movie - except for you it was terribly real.
I'm so sorry that you haven't had anyone to turn to. It's so hard when you still have so many questions about what happened, & why they even wanted you there in the first place.
Are you still involved in the same lifestyle as when this happened? I guess you know first-hand just how much danger is involved when minds are altered by drugs, greed & violence. I hope you're able to live more safely now.
Have you ever heard of post-traumatic stress disorder? The psychological community discovered that after the Viet-Nam war, the soldiers still lived in the terror & grief of it, long after the danger was over. I'm not familiar with the specific treatment for it, but it sounds to me as if you're still suffering from this trauma as if it just happened last week (it's not your fault, it's just the way our minds deal with things that are too overwhelming to handle). Maybe you could find someone who specializes in this type of therapy?
I hope that just sharing your story brings you some measure of relief & peace. Do you mind if I continue to pray for you?
Shalom, Dena
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