Posted by Sebastian on September 5, 2003, at 21:00:26
In reply to Re: My friend is dead! » Sebastian, posted by Dena on September 5, 2003, at 10:57:09
My friend was standing on the top of an oil tank when it exploded. I was standing next to it. 5 years later he died. Thats 2 years ago now. I was in shock about it all. 2 years ago I walked around wanting to cry all the time but I couldn't understand why?! I started to find that anoying. I live some 2000 or so miles from where this all happend now, been gone from there since a year after. I guess I haven't been able to deal with this I treat it as a problem that won't go away! I was never able to talk to anyone about it. My friends all left me alone I stayed in, major psychoses so I wasn't even able to speak for years, then it was all a thing of the past no one around me was even from the same country. I made an attempt to go back. Called all the people who were there, they wouldn't get on the phone or even come see me and talk about it. To this very day I don't know why that oil tank blew up, I know someone knows... Why don't they tell me?!!! Maybe then I could move on.??? Maybe we all could be freinds again?????? My life is nothing since this happened, I hate life! Some times I wish I were dead
poster:Sebastian
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