Posted by sunny10 on March 26, 2005, at 1:24:40
In reply to Re:((((((Sunny))))), posted by alexandra_k on March 25, 2005, at 22:55:30
I appreciate your hugs and condolences.
He has been ready to die for a few months now, but the rest of the family wouldn't let him go out with dignity. I have actually been estranged with them for the past month or so because I have a more Buddhist opinion about death- I respected his wishes; my opinion clashed completely with the American fear of death that the rest of the family has, so I stayed away because I saw no point in disagreeing with them and causing more pain than they were already causing themselves. They actually put him in a Geriatric Psych Ward, calling him "suicidal". Since he doesn't believe in mental health problems, they were smashing his dignity. (Yes, his disbelief caused a rift between US years ago.. we weren't at all what you'd call "close" ...well, ever, actually. He beat me when I was young, too...)
I am mostly just shocked by what I saw when I got to the hospital. There is a somewhat macabre post to Suze (she asked what I went through- I answered) on another thread.
For those of you who would be freaked out, suffice it to say that I am still in shock, almost six hours after the fact...
I'm glad he is no longer in pain and is at peace. I just wish I was... Selfish, I know...
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