Posted by Simus on March 22, 2004, at 18:28:22
In reply to Re: Please help!!!, posted by SandyWeb on March 22, 2004, at 14:33:46
Sandy,
Thank you so much for reaching out to us. Your post rips at my heart, because faithwise anyway, you are EXACTLY where I was the past three months - until last week. I think this is why the Lord put you on my heart so strongly, why I was so desparate to reach you. Please read on:
> I just don't know. All this time, I thought God was leading me. He absolutely got us away from hubby. And I thought He was guiding me towards being a nurse. I was amazed! I'm not totally comfortable around people, but I honestly thought He was calling me to be a nurse. I thought that was the reason I was created. I thought this was His purpose for me. All things are possible through Him.....and I was so excited! I knew I would be a wonderful nurse. I really care for people. And after working for a few months on an airliner disaster that happened here (but only body parts survived), I really empathize with people's grief.
I know by the Spirit of God that you WILL BE a wonderful nurse. He was the one who put that desire in your heart, and He will be faithful to bring it to pass. And you will be an even better nurse after having truly suffered through and overcome what your patients will be living. Who better to understand and help them??? Look what you have been through! Look how much you have already overcome! And you will beat the rest, by faith. You will be more than a nurse. (A shiver just ran through my body as this came to me.) Most nurses can only offer medicine, but you will also be able to offer the faith and hope in God Himself, the ultimate Healer. =)> And now.....was I so mistaken? All this time....when I thought I was listening to God....when I thought this was His wonderful plan for me.....when I was striving to fulfill that plan....when I was constantly in contact with Him.....what does it mean? Was He even there? Was I only hearing myself?? I don't get it. And every time I had a failure, I would learn something new.....and I thought that was why God had me go through the failure....to add more to my knowledge base in order to make me a better nurse. I was going to specialize in mental health, so what better way to learn than to go through as many experiences as possible.
God doesn't bring the trouble, but he certainly can bring us out of it and make us stronger for having lived through it. "Beauty for ashes, the oil of joy for mourning" =)
> But now.....I'm not going to be a nurse. I can't even go to secretarial school if I wanted to!!!! (But hit me over the head with an anvil if I want to go there!!! Lol!). I can never do anything for my kids or society.
That is just your current perception of your situation, only because you can't "see around the bend".Do you have a church? A church family can offer tremendous strength. Not only that, when your faith is running on empty, when you don't have the strength to pray one more prayer, they can stand in the gap for you. Do you mind if I ask what area of the country you are in? My Pastor is a pastor to hundreds of ministers from all over the world, and I can surely get you hooked up with a good church if you would like. I am not trying to "recruit" you into any religious group. What denomination you choose is your business. I just want to help if you will let me.
We had the best sermon last night on "endurance". It hit me right where I live. We forget sometimes how so many people in the Bible had to endure for an appointed time. I wish I could get a tape to you. Maybe someday...
God bless you, sweetie {{{{HUG}}}}
poster:Simus
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