Posted by sexylexy on March 21, 2004, at 23:44:16
In reply to Re: Please help!!! » Simus, posted by SandyWeb on March 21, 2004, at 17:21:18
Hey Sandy,
Your note sounded very confused to me. You have some affairs you would like to set in order, so does this mean you are planning on ending your life?
Believe me, even though you believe you are not depressed, you are empty and this is worse than depression. You seem to just not care anymore. You may feel like people would be better off if you were not in their lives anymore, so you could stop being such a burden to others. When I was deep and empty as yourself I felt the same way, if I ended my life, my parents would not have to deal with my problems, my boyfriend could move on and find a girl worth being with. Now that I am begining to feel better again, I know that had I harmed myself, I would have effected so many lives. My parents would be destroyed, my boyfriend and friends would never forgive themselves. Even though I would have been dead, I would have ruined so many lives and taken the easy way out for myself.
When you feel this way, everything is so empty and grey. You just want to disapear just blend in until you fade all together. There are so many of us on this board who have faced this demon. We are all in the battle to fight in and many of us are winning.
The major part is to not give into your feelings of worthlessness, guilt and broken spirit. If you are having enough thought to put some affairs in order, you are seriously condidering putting an end to your life. Sandy, you should call your parents and let them know. If you feel like you are going to make an attempt call 911. If need be drive to the nearest ER and they will check you in and get you in touch with people who can make it better.
Sandy, if you have stopped living for yourself, which I understand, at least live for your child. Killing yourself would put her though what you are going though right now but worse. She will spend the rest of her life asking herself what she did that made you do this, did she not love you enough, did you not love her enough. Do not allow these thoughts and feelings associated with your current state of mind rule you. Do not give it the satifaction of ruining you or the ones you love.
I you are a spiritual person I suggest you pray that you will get though this. It will help you sort you thoughts and come into a better place. I am praying for you tonight and wishing you a brighter day tomorrow.
The Lord Bless You and Keep You,
Lexy
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