Posted by mikhail99 on January 11, 2003, at 22:39:34
In reply to Re: Lonely is the night » Dinah, posted by Miller on January 11, 2003, at 21:04:32
> Well, Dinah,
> I started off my downward spiral by listening to my shrink tell me he has decided to spend a substancial amount of time less than what we had discussed during these three weeks. I, of course, was unable to articulate that I have cleared this three weeks in a last attampt to get my shit together.
> I also had an appointment with my family doctor for meds and all. I had to 'fess up about the overdose. That wasn't comfortable at all.
> My family doctor called mt husband at work the next day. She told him he needs to regulate my meds to prevent aanother potential deliberate overdose.
> My husband, who is very leary of this kind of freaked out. We are having enough difficulties trying to get him to understand all of this. On of the things he said was that he regrets marrying me. He said that because he can't help fix what is wrong, he feels powerless and that we weren't really meant to be together.Miller, I hope you don't mind me jumping in here but I was sad to read about your husband. And I feel for you, I have a similar problem. Mine doesn't understand depression at all either. Like they have to understand to empathize! But that must have been devastating for you to hear. It's awful that with all you have to deal with, you don't have his support.
> The reason for the uproar with my family soctor and the pschologist I met online os that they both know that my husband is out of town this weekend. My oppotunity presented itself. My shrink didn't even pick up on it. I have an appointment on Monday with him. It will be my last.
> I made the bargain with the inline psychologist because he seems to be genuinely concerned about getting me well. Not just preventing me from killing myself. So, we kept giving counter-proposals until we came to an agreement. I have agreed to not hurt myself or others this weekend.
> That may be why I am sleeping so much. It's easier to keep my word this way.
> I hope some of this makes sense. I am wondering what Beardy would say. It's kind of a compromise to what she had suggested on PBP board.
> What are your feelings? Am I going in the right direction or have I veered off course again?
>
> -Miller
>I, for one, am really glad you made the agreement with the online psychologist. I feel badly because I can't really address how you feel about hurting yourself. I just want you to know that you have support here and that I care about what happens to you. Please hang in there and sleep as much as you need to if it helps.
Mik
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