Posted by wendy b. on November 29, 2001, at 14:58:29
In reply to Re: Wendy where are you? :), posted by mair on November 29, 2001, at 7:12:45
> "Sometimes I wonder about this kind of 'affect,' though, i.e., related to affectation, in other words, I go in and display my symptom. Like it's somehow expected. Like I expect it, or is it really real? Is it just produced on cue"
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> Wendy - I've wondered the same thing. I'm always more anxious on days when I'm going to see my therapist, and not infrequently by the time I've reached her office, I'm in worse shape than I was 24 hours before. It's not a forum as suited for discussing what's good in our lives as what's wrong.That's it exactly. So I gear up to fall apart when I go in. Not all the time, but more so recently. I mean, where is the line between it being good (getting it all out, feeling safe enough to do it), and it being counter-productive (focusing too much on negatives in our lives)? I've been trying to do some of the CBT stuff, even though I don't in my heart-of-hearts believe in it. I've been doing the "self-talk" especially. The idea is, if I repeat words of power and strength, over time they might produce more of those qualities in me...
>I've also noticed however that even thinking about it in these terms is a trap for me. It reinforces my periodic tendency to feel that I've created (or at least am perpetuating) my depression, and that I ought to be able to will it away.
Yes, that's what I mean about CBT. I can't just be some kind of robot. Put on a happy face, and pronounce happy, positive words, and everything will be fine...> Mair
Thanks for replying, I like hearing from you...Wendy
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