Posted by ChrisK on November 27, 2001, at 3:11:00
In reply to Why suicide????, posted by Sourceror on November 26, 2001, at 21:32:36
I had an extreme problem with ruminating thoughts of suicide and death in general. They followed with me constantly and got to the point where I did have two attempts that landed me in ICU for a few days. The one thing that helped more than anything else was Zyprexa. I know that there aren't always medical ways to get out of the situation and others respond better to therapy but I don't know where I'd be without Zyprexa today.
I got to the point where I KNEW that I was too much of a burden on the people I loved and needed to go away so that they could get on with their lives. I wanted nothing more than to die. After my second attempt when I was in the hospital my pdoc gave me Zyprexa and within a week there was a noticable difference. I still felt worthless but my thinking had cleared to the point where suicide was not a minute to minute option. I slowly grew out of that thought pattern and managed to start living my own life again.
Please think about trying one of the antipsychotics. They can be very hel[pful in clearing up obsessive and deadly thought patterns.
Chris
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