Posted by Willow on November 26, 2001, at 23:27:51
In reply to Re: Why suicide???? » Sourceror, posted by sar on November 26, 2001, at 22:04:55
Sourceror
Welcome to the board!
The first time I had a suicidal thought I acted on it and ended up spending a week in the hospital. (Now in hindsight I wonder about the care given, but that's a story for another thread.) After that bad trip I started seeing a psychologist. So the next time when the thoughts crept in I called her and as a result spent a voluntary weekend in the hospital, though that time I refused any attempts to let them draw blood from me.
So after the second time I kept the thoughts to myself. Mine were fairly random, popping up out of the blue. Over a period of time I noticed that they occured during periods of fatigue or stress. (I am slow, this may have taken ten years.) Which is at about the point where you are?
And then for a totally different reason I started seeing a psychologist three years ago. He likes to talk about anxiety. His theory is that people get anxious and then from the chronic anxiety depression results.
So I figure the suicidal thoughts come from anxiety. For myself knowing this for some reason has made the occurence of these thoughts less frequent.
Whispering Willow
ps after the second hospital visit i realized that with time the thoughts go away, knowing this helps too
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