Posted by dreamer on July 28, 2001, at 15:17:36
In reply to blackout.... again... epilogue, posted by kid_A on July 28, 2001, at 11:45:13
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> found out that i did some very stupid things last night, things that i do not remember the slightest... conversations (arguments) i had with people about my behaviour i have no recolection of... places i was that are lost to me now, hidden deep in the recesses of memory that could only be surfaced by hypnosis or some deep deep destructive analysis of my grey matter...
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> i woke up this morning misserable, knowing that i had obviously fell again into that trap of self absorbed mass consumption non stop until you drop... its always a pleasure to be told of things you've done that you have no memory of... at least i didnt come home with a black eye...
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> amnesiac, at large.I remember those daze take care of yourself.
You know when things slide into the negetive and beyond you try hard to think of something to grasp onto, something to pull you out or to stop the slide- I have binged on pills + large quantities of alcohol and would never preach to stop or condem wild behaviour -I had some good times but calmed down a bit now well try as much as possible to maintain hypomania.
Well in the drugstore/chemist someone was buying a syringe . Came home and thought about it, just buying a syringe.
Good job I don't know where to get the med to go in it.
Didn't buy one ,took some buspars felt sick, body can't handle much. Kicked the AD back into shape though.
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