Posted by shrinking violet on October 15, 2004, at 16:50:44
In reply to Re: Quit therapy, for good,Cant take it anymore (long) » shrinking violet, posted by antigua on October 15, 2004, at 15:38:07
Thank you.
I *am* extremely sensitive, and I know I take things very hard, but it just seems like my T came across as more frustrated, angry, and harsh than she's been before. She's said similar things in the past, and I've felt badly about them, but I've also told her how much they hurt me and yet she still says them, and doesn't seem to try to say them in a different way. I don't want to begin to think that I cause her to become so hostile and angry. I just dont understand why she keeps asking me to come back...
I wish I knew what to do. Every time I go back, I think that I could somehow make it better; I have visions of what I'll say, how the session might go. But I get there and I play with my sleeves and look around the room at anything but her, and barely say anything while she does all the talking. I think maybe that's a problem, too; I'm so used to her taking charge and saying stuff that I'm not sure how to start the session with anything I want to say b/c she seems to want to talk even though she says she does it too much. She did say she's amazed at how she's fallen into that habit with me (that she just starts talking and goes on and on while I feel I cant get a word in edgewise, even if I wanted to).
Ick, this is such a messy situation. I dont know what to do, I'm at such a loss right now. I really don't want to end things this way with her, but, maybe it's for the best? I really don't know.
Thanks for your response. And no, it wasnt harsh at all. :)
-SV
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