Posted by Racer on July 29, 2004, at 11:20:58
In reply to For Susan (very long), posted by antigua on July 29, 2004, at 9:33:10
You can choose to ignore this, but I feel for you so deeply on this one -- it's so similar in many ways to what I experienced with the Therapist From The Black Lagoon, so I may be projecting my empathy for myself onto you. Whatever the root cause, I still feel for you.
That must be a terrible thing to experience.
Have you asked your long term therapist to look into it for you? Maybe request your chart from that CBT crowd and see if there's anything in there that could clarify it in her eyes, and then work with you to process your pain based on more complete information? That's pretty much what I've done about TTFTBL: I asked our marriage counselor to get a copy of my chart, to read it and see if she finds it accurate according to her acquaintance with me. I know she can't show it to me directly, and can't really even tell me what's in it, but at least someone I do trust will be in a position to "protect" me in some weird sense in my mind. Just knowing that she has the file now helps, even though she hadn't had a chance to read it when we saw her last.
Again, this hasn't had any practical result whatsoever -- BUT it has really, really relieved some of my distress, and it has made me feel safer and more protected somehow. Only you can decide if doing something similar might be helpful to you, but it is something to consider.
Best wishes.
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