Posted by antigua on July 29, 2004, at 13:08:33
In reply to Question/suggestion -- unsolicited » antigua, posted by Racer on July 29, 2004, at 11:20:58
Thank you so much for that great idea. My "all or nothing" thinking had blocked me from thinking of any resolution.
I'll have to think about whether it would be worse to know what he wrote or not to ever know. Maybe I'll ask my T. Right now I feel he would corroborate my shame and humiliation. If I were stronger, though....
Now that I think about, in some ways it doesn't matter what he wrote. I thought he "got" me but he clearly didn't, and from some research I've done I think this has a lot more to do w/him than me. But he wouldn't be above placing the blame on me, and then I'm back to defending myself and being denied what I know to be the truth (as I was denied as a girl).
But thanks for the idea. I'll think about it some more. You gave me a sliver of hope!
antigua
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