Posted by Heike on November 4, 2007, at 9:42:02
In reply to Breaking in Half over Grief, posted by sadSimon on October 10, 2007, at 0:13:02
Hi Simon,
I compltely understand your feelings and how deep grief can go with losing parents, even when they are old and sick. My mom was very sick for 6 years, with the last three years of her life being bedridden and virtually unresponsive. She died in April 2007. I have grieved for her for so long, even when she was alive and suffering, but the finality of her death has devastated me. I spent the last month of her life living with her in a hospice home, watching her die, and was with her to the end. I am trying to learn how to cope with the sadness and the loss, but I think of her suffering and her never having that retirement she deserved and how it would be if she were here and healthy and I want to scream and cry forever.... Some days are better than others. In the end, I know that it comes down to time and acceptance, but we all feel ut pain differently and we have to allow it.
Blessings to you Simon and the memory of your parents...and blessing to my mom too!
xo
Heike
> I do not know if anyone still comes to this site, the posts look old - that is OK. I need to write this before I explode. I have problems dealing with my feelings.
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> My father died 07.28.06 and my mother died 08.02.07. They were both sick (at their own time) - I know they were old and were not happy with their health. I am not sad because they died. I am devastated because I miss them so much.
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> People try to give advice, but I feel that unless you have experienced this, you do not know what it feels like. I have experienced loss (trust me) and grief - but not like this. Maybe like losing a kid. I am not angry, although I sound angry. I am very very very very sad. I have a long hx c/depression and this is not helping.
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> I sound crazy and this is why I cannot talk to anyone. I have friends, but I do not feel that I can be really open. I know a lot of counselors and therapists, and I work in the field. I know enough to raiontalize my way out of any advice.
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> Who knows!? This is not getting easier. I cry every day and I dream about them every night.
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> I feel like I am breaking in half.
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> Simon
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