Posted by Justherself54 on October 10, 2007, at 11:30:31
In reply to Breaking in Half over Grief, posted by sadSimon on October 10, 2007, at 0:13:02
> I do not know if anyone still comes to this site, the posts look old - that is OK. I need to write this before I explode. I have problems dealing with my feelings.
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> My father died 07.28.06 and my mother died 08.02.07. They were both sick (at their own time) - I know they were old and were not happy with their health. I am not sad because they died. I am devastated because I miss them so much.
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> People try to give advice, but I feel that unless you have experienced this, you do not know what it feels like. I have experienced loss (trust me) and grief - but not like this. Maybe like losing a kid. I am not angry, although I sound angry. I am very very very very sad. I have a long hx c/depression and this is not helping.
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> I sound crazy and this is why I cannot talk to anyone. I have friends, but I do not feel that I can be really open. I know a lot of counselors and therapists, and I work in the field. I know enough to raiontalize my way out of any advice.
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> Who knows!? This is not getting easier. I cry every day and I dream about them every night.
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> I feel like I am breaking in half.
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> SimonI don't think you sound crazy at all..after 10 years I still miss my dad and think about him every day..the first two years were the hardest for me and I found it difficult to talk to anyone about how I was feeling too..you are in the midst of hard grieving..it's Ok to cry every day and dream about them..people try to give advice because they care, but grief is such an individualized process. I spiraled into a terrible depression during the second year after his death and finally sought help..once the depression started lifting, I was more able to handle the grief and painful thoughts of my dad eventually turned into comforting memories..
Please keep posting..let us know how you're doing..
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