Posted by sadSimon on October 10, 2007, at 0:13:02
I do not know if anyone still comes to this site, the posts look old - that is OK. I need to write this before I explode. I have problems dealing with my feelings.
My father died 07.28.06 and my mother died 08.02.07. They were both sick (at their own time) - I know they were old and were not happy with their health. I am not sad because they died. I am devastated because I miss them so much.
People try to give advice, but I feel that unless you have experienced this, you do not know what it feels like. I have experienced loss (trust me) and grief - but not like this. Maybe like losing a kid. I am not angry, although I sound angry. I am very very very very sad. I have a long hx c/depression and this is not helping.
I sound crazy and this is why I cannot talk to anyone. I have friends, but I do not feel that I can be really open. I know a lot of counselors and therapists, and I work in the field. I know enough to raiontalize my way out of any advice.
Who knows!? This is not getting easier. I cry every day and I dream about them every night.
I feel like I am breaking in half.
Simon
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