Posted by alexandra_k on May 6, 2009, at 16:57:46
In reply to Re: Subject line change, posted by alexandra_k on May 6, 2009, at 16:44:53
It is funny really... We had this whole thing...
It really is better for me not to be here. Not because there aren't wonderful posters here or anything like that but because the prospects of a one year block from on high for something arbitrary where I really didn't see it coming is... Not pleasant. Positively destructive.
Think it was the... 4 week block that did it. Something snapped about then. Not sure if it was the four weeks that was too much or whether it was the prospect of more than four weeks that was too much but that was when I basically 'lost it'. Dysregulation... Indeed. Not something that happens to me anymore...
I need to... Be careful about constructing my environment so that it is pleasant and rewarding to me. Need to avoid places where I don't feel safe.
I need to not be posting here. Given that 'change is slow' and so on and so forth. It is better for me not to be here.
And my take... Is that a friend would accept that and wish me well. I mean they could try and persuade me that I'd be better off here... But then the fact that I could well get blocked for a year for arbitrary reasons, well, who would want to put a friend through that?
Maybe I'm just too sick for the boards. That was an idea that was floated... Maybe I am. I mean... Functioning pretty highly in the sense of finishing up a PhD and teaching at university and so on and so forth... But sure, this place requires something more or... Whatever. This place is a f*ck*ng joke. Rapidly turning into a wasteland. Not a comment on the posters here... Comment on the wonderful human beings who have moved on because of issues with admin. Students is a wasteland indeed. Does it even exist anymore? If I have regrets it is that I didn't move on long ago... Once I realized Bob's reaction to the 'f*rt' thing. The arbitrary enforcement. The way he wouldn't face up to that or apologize or reconsider what the hell civility was supposed to be about.
Moving on now... For my own sanity.
Goodbye.
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thread:888433
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