Posted by muffled on February 26, 2009, at 11:13:18
In reply to Re: GHOSTS, posted by Dr. Bob on February 26, 2009, at 10:28:22
> > You sure don't trigger this one by being absent.
>
> > And ya, it IS abusive when somoene you hold in esteem ... doesn't help you when you being hurt.
> > Who just mysteriously not there, even though he said he'd be.
> > Who keeps saying, I am coming but never does.
> >
> > Hmmmm.
>
> Ya, hmmmm.
>
> Bob*Perhaps I should clarify...
I do appreciate what seems to come across as a sense of humour from Bob. I enjoy humour, I think it is huge.
So I was laffing at myself cuz ya I kinda knew I was talking myself into a box but posted anyways cuz ya it WAS funny!
I also laff at the short response. Well done.
I am not angry, its so hard to express oneself on just words.There seems to be something likable about Bob, but that may just be due to his position of power here. Y'know, old habit of keeping oneself safe by keeping in good favor of the one who has the power to hurt you....
I dunno. Neither here nor there, just vaguely curious.Primarily the reason for this post, is to indicate, that yes, I do seem to have an aspect of me that does enjoy Bob, BUT, the part he <didn't> cut and paste was the part about how for me, in my perception, the BIGGER problem for me is seeing others(oh heck, I will just say it) the deputies get hurt. I was here for that whole process and it just sticks in my craw very badly as an injustice that doesn't need to be and shouldn't be. And yes, there is some guilt in there as well, because those kind posters who bravely and generously stepped up to do the job, and I didn't. I was suspicious (it turns our justifiably...)of Bobs motives. But I still feel guilty cuz I bailed. I bailed on fellow babblers and on deps. I wimped out. Thats not usu my way.
Hmmmm again, ya, I guess I only now, upon writing this, realize how bad I have felt bout my not strpping up to ther plate :(
So I suppose that guilt is showing in my somewhat rabid support of the deps.
So, its not so much that I really give a crap bout Bob (sorry dude, like you care anyways, NOT), its more my own selfish guilt, and my defense of those who have been IMHO wronged.
Just to be clear, its also the blocks I have huge issue with....
Ya, and bmail....
Sigh.
I'll shut up now.
Thanks for letting me say my piece and listening to me if you got this far anyone.
I gotta think now, cuz some of this is new to me.
TGC
M
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