Posted by okydoky on July 30, 2008, at 11:46:16
In reply to Re: Ah, there's the pragmatic I lack » toph, posted by gardenergirl on July 29, 2008, at 23:03:32
When I read these last few posts on this thread I feel snubbed because no one responded to my thread or post, and it was about the same or similar issue. I apologize for making my posts all about gg. It was and is not. The last post I wrote was addressed to her mainly because of Toph's post I found to her which addressed my initial reactions on reading through some of the board. I read more and as my post stated saw Lous posting behavior and do not know if I had read further if there would have been more like it.
To be clear I am referring to asking for many many clarifications by my use of posting behavior
There is more than one reason why this posting behavior upset me. Some of it is stated in my post addressed to gg, some in the linguistic gymnastics" post which no one responded to. To be clear I feel snubbed by everyone on this board.
Besides my initial response on initially reading a page or so on the board, which Toph articulated better than I ever could, when I took a few steps back it is becoming clearer to me why I have such strong objection.
My feelings are that if I do not have the cognitive or language skills to respond to the clarifications or write the post initially so that people would not ask for infinite clarifications than there will be no discussion or response. No resolution of the issue I might be posting about.
I do not even remotely possess the cognitive language skills and feel very hurt and put down as it appears on this board it is a requisite skill. I know I am not articulating this well and perhaps I should spend another few hours trying to get it all very concise , but I just cannot do it . It is asking more than my abilities provide. I read through several threads or almost an entire page of posts and later went back to read older posts in an attempt to understand and perhaps sooth my hurt feeling. I do not know all the background on this board. I do not know much which is why I tried to see what the TOS (here I am not sure I am using the correct term) had to say. I also spent a short amount of time searching the internet for answers and perhaps something to inform me and the board if needed. I posted this all on the thread about linguistic gymnastics. I was hoping to gain some understanding but no one has responded. Perhaps I am jumping the gun. To clarify, I am being impatient and need to give people on the board some time to respond.
I am aware that I over react but to put it all out there this upset me so much I cried on and off for two days, took tranquilizers for one day in order to sleep and as you might read into this I am having trouble letting it go. The acceptance of the posting behavior on the board informs me, rightly or wrongly, that it is I who is cognitively impaired and it feels terrible. I have used this site on and off as a resource to inform and educate me about medications. At this juncture I am feeling a great loss as I do not want to loose what I consider to be an important, irreplaceable resource for me
I apologize to gg as I addressed it as if it were all about her. I do not know much about group dynamics but tacit acceptance to me suggests the issue is all about the group on admin.I have spent almost two hours trying to write this one post. The more I attempt to clarify what I am trying to say the longer it gets and I think perhaps off topic and diluted.
I would appreciate some type of response and if you read this very long post I thank you.
oky
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