Posted by blueboy on August 21, 2007, at 12:19:03
In reply to Re:, posted by SometimesBlue on August 21, 2007, at 10:28:52
I'm not gonna argue with you. I've heard this bs a thousand times. I'm sorry that you are going to have to hit a bottom lower than where you are, before you can start to get better.
I wish that I'd had the courage to start and stick with AA before I'd done permanent mental and physical damage to myself, but much more, I am thankful every day that there were all those people willing to help me come to my senses before I killed someone (including myself).
> Going there, it's like admitting to the world outside myself that I have a problem. I don't always do "stuff"...but when I'm low, I am REALLY low and this seems to be the only way to get out of that crappy feeling that surrounds me. But then ofcourse there's that guilty "i'm a sh***y person" feeling the next day. And no one knows i drank or took some pills, they just see I'm in a good mood and that's fine.
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> Going there means I have to turn my back to everything I once enjoyed (even when it wasn't such a good idea). And then what? I can't be around alcohol or drugs...otherwise what's the point of going, right? And if anyone finds out, you know, they'll treat me different.
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> How did I get here? I'm not looking for an answer to that one...just throwing it out there...
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