Posted by ClearSkies on August 6, 2007, at 15:04:16
In reply to Re: I HATE MYSELF, posted by sometimesblue on August 6, 2007, at 14:00:27
> Thanks for listening, it's great to meet you.
>
> I'm not sure my problem is constant drinking...i binge drink. I'll go a week or 2 at a time when i'm drinking everyday, and taking pills...maybe it's provoked by the depression...not really sure. I'm just tired of hating myself the next morning, or wondering what did I do the night before. But sober, I feel nothing. Just bored, which leads to sad...to depression, to anxiety...i just can't stand either side of the fence.Yes, boredom is a problem. When you're not sober, you have to face the fact that you aren't where you want to be. When you drink, you don't get the chance to be bored. (Just embarrassed or guilty, the next day.) But I'd say that maybe boredom - or feeling "nothing" - sounds a lot like depression. Maybe you drink or take pills because you're depressed in the first place, and it feels like boredom, and not sadness.
Oh, and I've spent a long time on that fence. Years, really.
take care, OK? And keep posting - it's good to post.ClearSkies
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