Posted by kerria on August 20, 2005, at 20:15:33
In reply to Re: Open Letter to my Psychology 101 Teacher » kerria, posted by alexandra_k on August 20, 2005, at 18:18:57
(((((((((alexandra))))))))
Thanks so much for responding.
i'm so glad you're ok after the bridge episode. Please take care of you- i know it's so hard sometimes and things seem so impossible but we have to hang on to hope. i almost didn't make it once too. Things can look so so bad somtimes.
i wish i never found out i had DID.Yes- it was way terrible how that happened at my school. i was having problems - as i have since i was a kid but i never had a dx. Then i had to take a genEd psy class and the teacher didn't have tests for grading- he had 'in-class' essays instead. i always got around not looking at my handwriting- by short answers or computer but with the in-class essays they were handwritten by the part i have that writes papers. i would receive the papers back but not recognize them at all- not the handwriting or the words used. It scared me to get them back. i told the teacher the problem- not to give them back because it was so upsetting and worried and felt like i was losing my mind. He asked to talk to me about half-way through the semester and after 45 min or so said, "You have DID" explained a little, gave a list of therapists . My whole life fell apart.
It was too hard to find a T that would take me, i started having so many really bad flashbacks and wasn't able to manage anything anymore- all my parts started acting out and everything was so terrible, my H didn't know, i couldn't tell anyone. i still kept trying to go to school and different parts did work-study and a job besides to pay for therapy. i was alone struggling so much.
The counselors at that school wouldn't help. i finally was able to find the T i have now. Therapy even made things worse and they're still hard now.It was a nightmare. That teacher should never have told me. Therapy didn't make me better- i was better before. now i haven't a choice.
When he told me i became so much worse.i was formally dx by testing a few months after the teacher told me i had DID- when i finally found a T but the school made everything so difficult- even though their own faculty member noticed my problems openly. There were hospitalizations, they wouldn't let me have withdrawals- it was a mess.
everybody knows i have DID now but S.S. disability is still taking so much time to go through.
If i go back to finish i should go to a more politically correct/disability-friendly college, if i can ever find some one to help me with the math entrance testing. No continuity makes it impossible for me to do.
Alexandra- how much further are you going to go - are you almost or finished in your degree program?
kerria
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