Posted by kerria on August 20, 2005, at 12:27:33
Dear Dr ___,
How many times i wished that i could let you see the damage you did to me- my entire life is so much worse since you asked to talk to me that day in the fall semester of 2000.
i was having a hard time at living but it was a hard time- not an impossible time like it is now.
i remember going to your class. There were tears of being ashamed, i was late for class a lot and the fear of seeing those papers i received back with my name on them- the 'in-class' handwritten essays that i didn't write.You thought that you could talk to me and confirm if what you suspected were true and point out what was wrong and i could just go to therapy for a while and be fixed. It didn't work out that way at all.
i've failed at everything that ever mattered to me because of your intervention in my life. i never would have wanted to know - it hasn't helped to know my diagnosis and i was going to school- you weren't even my therapist. You had no right to tell me something so damaging and it had such a negative impact on my life. "With therapy," you said, "you'll be appreciably better in six months." It's been almost five years and things can't be much worse. There i was, not able to find a therapist on the list of therapists that you gave, no one would take me.There were months of flashbacks, without anyone to help, school became so unmanageable as well as life at home and work. Did you know that my life almost ended because of an OD in 2002? Did you know all the difficulty i had with school and how they didn't understand my having to withdraw and i was so frustrated of all the heartless requests for documentation that i gave Registration the committment papers from the hospital and they Still didn't want to excuse my absence?
You gave me an 'A' in your course but i failed at everything that ever mattered to me. It was one of the worst days of my life when you told me i had Dissociative Identity Disorder. i wasn't ready and there was no one to pick up the aftermath. There still isn't.
Your former student,
kerria
poster:kerria
thread:544332
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/studs/20050329/msgs/544332.html