Posted by alexandra_k on April 6, 2015, at 21:49:50
In reply to Re: realisation..., posted by alexandra_k on April 4, 2015, at 21:52:03
I feel like my eyes are being peeled open. Slowly. I'm noticing things I didn't notice before. Or things that I kind of knew... Are taking on new significance.
I worried briefly whether I might be going crazy / getting paranoid... Moments of intense fear...
But I think things are going to be okay.
This country is the toilet of the world. We get shipped all the crap that the rest of the world don't want no more. Obviously. There is no earthly reason why they would ship it all the way the hell down here, otherwise.
There are things up everywhere about 'get out! get out! get away!'. It is like... The rest of the world doesn't want to poison and hurt the good people... The good people who have talents and skills... The people they identify with / resonate with as *human*. The beautiful dancers and athletes... The smart academics... The world is full of better offers for us to leave this sh*t hole of the world and go join them overseas...
But there are still people here. There are people still here. *Good* people. People who the rest of the world can identify with, as human. And other people here... The people who are so full of rocks (salt) and addicted to sugar... The malnourished people who can't stop eating rocks and sugar... But recognisably good people care about them. Recognisably good people are still here. Dammit. Trying to figure out how to help them.
Even when they won't take their medication because they don't like the yoghurt without sugar. Even when they would rather eat water injected, sugar injected, australian beef shipped here in refrigerated containers rather than pay more for locally grown nz beef... the people can't afford it... don't realise that they can afford it (portion sizes, yeah, people aren't used to food). And then the breaking the addiction part of that with the withdrawal...
I think... I think I'm going to be okay.
The main thing is to be able to control my attention. So that I can spend some time worrying about something / trying to fix something... Then spend some time doing something else.
I need to get back to study right now.
I'm having a hard time adjusting to the change in daylight savings...
I'm going to be okay.
I need friends who care about me. Yeah.
I am glad that I get the opportunity to do more law.
I think this country is on the brink of crisis... Or something... Some kind of revolution. We've had the last prime minister in for 2 goes... I think something happens... Arrogance? Nothing to lose? Something... Our lawyers / the judiciary doesn't have the power over here that it does in the US. Over here... The politicians have more power to rush bills through without due process...
A couple of aps have been launched that allow people to live stream from their cellphones.
You know, people carry cellphones around in public change rooms. In public hospital wards... Everywhere... Governments don't need to spy on people. The people spy on the people. The people name the faces to make it easy for them.
But really... It isn't about government... It is about business... The people who do whatever whatever (expoliting others - i mean rich people get their money from taking money from others, yeah... they don't just get it in violation of some principle of thermodynamics / money... or something... surely)... Anyway...
Our TV's are watching us.
You know, right.
To check how we respond to advertisement. To check how we respond to aspects of the news...
Big Brother is here.
There is a war on. Iran got 'free trade'. Uh... The US got more oil. Yeah.
Damn.
ANyway... One... Needs to be able to cope with all this... Without going crazy. Without giving in to sugar and alcohol and rocks and so on.. Without giving in to depression and despair...
It hurts. Of course it does. Because it is horrible.
But I need to be able to relax... Because I am surrounded by people who are... Still here. People who are here. They have the same interests as me because they are here. They don't want to be bombed or poisoned, either... But they might need a little help with the latter...
As for now... It is study time. Embryology... Yeah.
Cries.
Embroyology time. Time to shut out the rest of the world, for today.
poster:alexandra_k
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