Posted by alexandra_k on April 2, 2015, at 14:28:13
In reply to Re: realisation..., posted by alexandra_k on March 30, 2015, at 21:32:50
we had our first test. population health. it was... uh... thematically arranged to be about the content they taught us about hanging epidemiological studies on a frame... but it was basically... testing out ability to hold a bunch of stuff in working memory and to move on from garble and... stuff... a cognitive capacity / attention / working memory kind of a more general intelligence test, really. more like what the UMAT is getting at...
i think i sort of get what they are getting at / wanting from me. which is a relief. i feel very relieved to feel like i have discovered that things aren't random. i feel happier to feel that there is some kind of sense in things... but i'm not sure that i'm any good / capable of being any good at the things they are wanting from me. i'm used to having the cognitive resources to range / associate a bit. that's how i get to be creative... and they eliminated redundancies in the phrasing so i couldn't take micronaps... or something... not entirely sure. you would think i could voluntarily control my reading speed to go at whatever pace i needed... huh.
there were distracting things, too. lots of distracting things... like, uh, how my mind is captured by missing words / typos. i guess... the thing is... it's okay to notice. good to notice. useful to notice. but then you need to be capable of choosing to put that information to one side and carry on. there were lots of... dissonant distractors. upsetting things... that weren't relevant for answering the question i'd been asked. like... the papers were yellow but population health is blue (to me) and so on. of course i do know that some things are arbitrary / random... i only just now realise that it is important not to get hung up on things like that. to be able to respond flexibly. yeah.
it is very different from when you get to write your own question / change your question and you find you have answered something slightly different (like a thesis) etc. hur..
i'm not entirely sure i should have told the umat people about their missing word, now. i bet they got a giggle out of it. damn it. i wonder if i'll get a different freaking version of the test.
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