Posted by hyperfocus on October 3, 2011, at 12:44:26
I started reading the Count of Monte Cristo and thinking about people like Jamey Rodemeyer and what his parents must feel now after their 14-year old son took his own life because of bullying. A lot of us have had to live through a huge amount of pain and suffering in our lives because of the things that other people have done to us. We should be fortunate we're still alive after so many chose to end theirs; still several times during the day I feel like Edmond Dantes, locked away in prison for so many years for the lone crime of being too trusting of his friends and too vulnerable .
So suppose you acquired the wealth or means to exact 10-fold retribution on your tormentors for what they did to you with zero risk to your own self. Suppose you were Jamey Rodemeyer's father or mother and you were given the means to destroy every one of the people who destroyed your son; to take every single thing away from them till life itself became a torment, just as they did to your son. Would you take it? Or would you instead wait and hope for for some sort of cosmic equalization or divine justice?
I'm only on the first few chapters (so don't spoil it for me) but Dantes seems to be someone who didn't have any evil thoughts about anyone, until this terrible betrayal and crime was perpetrated against him. His retribution sweeps up innocent people, like the son of the woman who he loved. So is it that retribution lowers you to the level of your enemies? I really don't know what I would do - many, many times I feel like I would take the opportunity to exact retribution on people who hurt me so badly.
C-PTSD: social phobia, major depression, dissociation.
Currently: 300mg amitriptyline single dose at night.
Also: Allegra, 1000mg Vitamin C.
Improving.
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