Posted by TexasChic on January 17, 2008, at 20:56:35
My cousin Johnny died last week. I've been trying to push it out of my mind, but I looked at another cousin's myspace page and saw "RIP Johnny" and just lost it. I feel so guilty. He reached out to me, but I was busy trying to get my own sh*t together. He moved pretty far away, so it wasn't like I could see him, but still, I could have kept in touch. He was homeless, got caught shop lifting and died of an asthma attack running from the cops. The funeral was today and I just couldn't handle it. Now I feel so guilty. But after my Grandmother's funeral, I just couldn't take it. But my family needed me. I actually asked him if it was okay if I missed his funeral and he said yes. He would have understood. I'm just so sad.
-T
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