Posted by LJRen on October 28, 2006, at 0:41:50
In reply to I am tired, posted by jammerlich on October 26, 2006, at 13:33:26
> I am tired of feeling 5 years old all the time.
> I am tired of wanting what I cannot have.
> I am tired of the constant ache that comes from not having a good mother.
> I am tired of trying to make the mother I have feel loved.
> I am tired of not having a sanctuary.
> I am tired of being seen as the helper.
> I am tired of holding it all together.
> I am tired of feeling: scared, alone, vulnerable, invisible, lost....
> I am tired of thinking about ways to kill myself.
> I am tired of not having the energy/courage to go through with it.
> I am tired of being nice.
> I am tired of saying what people what people want to hear.
> I am tired of myself.
>
> I am so very, very tired.
>
OH MY GOD!!! DITTO!!!!! Somebody has written down the words that have played in my head like a broken record.To sleep is to escape. Sleep is my/our salvation.
Thank you,
Ren
poster:LJRen
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