Posted by jammerlich on October 26, 2006, at 13:33:26
I am tired of feeling 5 years old all the time.
I am tired of wanting what I cannot have.
I am tired of the constant ache that comes from not having a good mother.
I am tired of trying to make the mother I have feel loved.
I am tired of not having a sanctuary.
I am tired of being seen as the helper.
I am tired of holding it all together.
I am tired of feeling: scared, alone, vulnerable, invisible, lost....
I am tired of thinking about ways to kill myself.
I am tired of not having the energy/courage to go through with it.
I am tired of being nice.
I am tired of saying what people what people want to hear.
I am tired of myself.I am so very, very tired.
I took a lot of something to help me sleep. Enough to hurt my? I doubt it. Enough to make me sleep until tomorrow? Hopefully.
poster:jammerlich
thread:697928
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