Posted by Damos on August 18, 2005, at 16:58:01
In reply to Re: Disordered all other the place, too many board » Dinah, posted by ClearSkies on August 18, 2005, at 16:17:13
I'm sorry you're feeling this way CS. Though your second post does carry signs of hope. Simply being able to see the pattern is a big, big thing. I also think Dinah may be on to something with the structure stuff.
In my own case, the structure isn't a problem it's all the expectations that go along with working. The security of the routine (probably a better word than structure) of having to get up and go to work and be out there are what saves me and keeps me functional a lot of the time. The loss of my routines really scares me. It may well be a groove or a rut depending on how you look at it, but it's safe and predictable and mine. Maybe it's the loss of the routine that's hard. Going to work got you out, and once you were out doing other thing while you were 'out there' didn't seem so big. But going out specifically to do those things is something else again. I go through periods of that too.
As for falling of the wagon. Each of us has wagons we fall off. Try not to too hard on yourself. It's only natural when things get messed up to retreat to familiar patterns, especially if the support you need to be strong isn't there at that weakest moment. We're all here loving you as best we can CS, lean on us all you need to.
Would you like to try the online 21 Day Reiki course I did a while back? I find when I remember to do it (even half heartedly) that it really helps.
Well just in case the first one wasn't enough (((((CS)))))
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