Posted by Fallen4MyT on November 25, 2004, at 2:18:03
In reply to Re: How aweful is this? or...is it? HELP PLS, posted by Poet on November 25, 2004, at 2:04:32
Thanks Poet and I did tell hubby ..I also told him truthfully that I didn't mind if he went alone that would be good and take the pressure to pretend off me...I told him I do not blame his folks for not caring about me cause I know they do not know me how could they we hardly know one another and I feel the same about them.
My husband hates holidays and has done things like take money to buy me a Christmas gift then use it for him and hide it...I really do not think he cares for how I feel. I have tried to do a new tradition per my T so we can all see one another near the holidays but not right on and he blocks them all. I do not like feeling so human
:-) It is hard for me to be selfish I think this is the first year I have been and it is hard for me. I would not even mind being with my friends and seeing some extended family near Christmas and not seeing hubby while he sees his folks. It is like he cannot stand the thought of just a holiday with just us yet I am the one who entertains and cleans and stuff at his folks he sits quiet...I pray I feel no guilt..wish me luck> You're not a loon, you're feeling guilty if you don't go, but miserable if you do. That's not crazy, it's human.
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> Can you talk to your husband about how pressured you feel? Maybe he does care, but doesn't understand? It's his parents who use you to get to him, that's incredibly hard on you. If my husband's family did that to me, I'd tell him how I feel.
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> Your feelings count. Best of luck
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