Posted by octopusprime on November 17, 2003, at 1:35:26
i see this theme over and over on this site
and in my own life
and i wonder if it is a condition of modern life
lonelinessi saw douglas coupland speak about his book
he said something to the effect of:
"if we could bottle 'Hi, How was your day?' in a pill, we would have no need for anti-depressants"do you believe that is true?
i have been on an introspective journey of sorts for the last few months. after looking back on the pieces of my life, i realize that i have been intensely lonely for many pieces of it. true friendships have been fleeting - in general, i have not spent more than three years in the same city with a person without wanting to kill said person. is this typical? are we all doomed to fundamental misunderstanding of our psyche from others?
and now, more recently, i have run into the selfish and/or arrogant and/or immature types who are afraid of deep friendship. i don't know if it is a time thing, or a fear of knowing thing, or what. but i have made nice overtures, only to get told one bs excuse or another time after time. makes me not want to reach out to anybody.
i don't mind so much going out. i go to the movies and to drum and here and there and i chat with the people, make friendly acquaintance, and disappear again like a ghost. like i was never there. and still again face up to the loneliness of being really, truly, on my own.
and then i think i'm flawed. but i don't like that reasoning. so then i think everybody else is flawed. which sort of limits my options of meeting people, if they're all flawed.
bah. this is long and rambly and makes no sense. but, this is the thread for ramblings about loneliness! bring em on.
poster:octopusprime
thread:280420
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