Posted by Dinah on January 4, 2003, at 10:20:28
In reply to Re: Miller... » Dinah, posted by Noa on January 4, 2003, at 8:35:22
> Dinah, I really do relate to why you are angry about his having forgot. I would be angry too, I think. It puzzles me how he could forget.
Me too. Unless he was drunk or high... And I don't think he abuses, although sometimes I wonder.
Actually, if I remember correctly, he was upset about some things in his private life at the time. I don't know what they were, but they seemed to have thrown him for a loop. Is that an excuse good enough for me to forgive him? I don't know, and even if it is, I'm nowhere near being able to re-tell him.
It's just too loaded with significance right now. That's why I didn't tell him for years. I think the only reason I could tell him at all is that I was on my trial of Risperdal and nothing much had any significance. I guess I need to consider why this topic is so emotionally laden for me. He knows all the components, that I'm not averse to killing myself, that he's horrendously important to me. So why is putting all that together of such momentous importance to me? Like some closely guarded temple secret.
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