Posted by Gracie2 on May 29, 2002, at 10:02:08
In reply to Re: How do you act normal? » Gracie2, posted by Cece on May 29, 2002, at 0:24:47
My husband wants me to go because the reason for the trip is that his sister is getting married, and I suppose it would look bad or be rude for me not to show up. I don't mind going to the wedding...it's what to do with myself the whole week beforehand at another person's house (a hotel room wouldn't be as bad, but I guess that's out of the question). I get "peopled out" so fast, it is possible for me to spend an entire day at work socializing, but then I cannot wait to get home. Once I do, I feel like I've been holding my breath all day. I can't even imagine spending 7 days surrounded by near-strangers with no refuge, trying to make conversation and acting like I'm enjoying myself. Every time I think about it I want to cry, I believe it's beyond my capabilities to do that and I will somehow blow it in a very big way.
It is possible that I might be able to fly up on my own a day or two before the wedding. It might look strange to his family but I think it would be preferable to my becoming more and more unhappy and uncomfortable - and increasingly unable to hide it -if I tried to stay for the entire week. I wish I was more like my father, he isn't comfortable with enforced socializing either and so he just doesn't do it, and he doesn't care what anybody thinks about it.
-Gracie
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