Posted by ELA on January 29, 2002, at 12:06:13
The prospect of this rehab programme I have to go on has really sent me into another dark mood and feelings of despair. Just when I thought things were finally starting to improve, I get all this. Psychiatrist was actually quite scary, asking and telling me all these things that I hadn't even considered and most of what he was saying was right. Bloody doctors, they're too intelligent for their own good! I've been quite happy just keeping everything locked up inside and now I'm being faced with having to unlock every bad experience/decision/moment from my life and talk about it.
If anyone ever invents a way of turning back time I would be first in the queue to try it. I could go back to November and just ask to be cryogenically frozen for a couple of weeks so that the clots never happen! Maybe not, but it would be nice. But then I guess we all think that from time to time.
Everyone keeps trying to get me to explain what's going on in my head at the moment and the only thing I know for sure is that I just want my life, and the control of it, back again.
Emma.
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